Woooo how long has it been that I haven't come on here to comment peoples art and make some journal that no one reads? xDDD I miss you guys. All the pretty art that I watch from people has improved. I have also been improving with my own art. :333 Yesyes. When will I put one up here? x3?

So what has happened throughout the year of 2009? My uncle died.. my dog died. RIP Uncle Olvier. RIP my baby Peaches. I love you both so much. Some times it jus hits me out of nowhere. I would be like.. why the fuck am I crying?

I've been still talking to boys. School came back. That boy I was crazy about... he moved back to where he was from and I kinda lost feelings for him. I don't really like him any more. As sexy as he looks. Shit I wish. But I came to think that maybe he doesn't like me. Being at school without him is kinda weird. I miss seeing him sometimes. There's a new cute boy in my school. But I don't like him. He's sexy as hell though. XDDD But there's just something I don't like. I can't explain. Me and my close enough to be-friends tried to invite him to a party. He didn't want to come. I was like damn.. I need a guy who like to party. Who refuses to go to one? Now I know why I don't like him. He's not my type. He tries so hard not to look at me. xDD I see him. Passing through the halls. He looks normal untill we pass one another. I don't even be thinking about him. But whenever he got something to say I don't mind to talk to him. He anti-social shhh Anti-social + anti-social = Something I don't know.

Maybe what is jus the way it is?? Maybe being myself is just the way it is. No boy ever wants me. lolololol 8333 I dropped my guard down a bit because I thought maybe things change. But nope. C: I don't need a guy for myself. But when I like one.. it puts me down that I can't get him. These are the things that I think of myself: I'm ugly with no personality. That's just the way it is. Don't expect no boy to like me. I'll be ok. Like I said I don't need any one. I been like this for almost 17 years. :3

My bday is coming. CC: Yay. I'll be 17.

Anyway that's just the way it is. You see a new boy. He look good as hell. But oh no no. Remember my girl. You can't have him. You have no chance.

I'm not getting married. I'm just Ms. Unfortunate. I can get all things I want. But I can't have something I desire. While all my friends tell me about their boyfriends. How's a kiss like. How's sex like. How he makes her feel. Getting sex is not a hard thing. Any guy is open for it. But having it with the boy that's special to you is even more better. I'm only guessing. I'm just a virgin. :3